My son asked me the other night why I never finished college, after having completed more than three years of college credits. I had to really think about it afterwards. I told him that I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up. I had changed my major three times, starting in English Lit (and almost earning a degree in it), Business Management and Psychology. The truth of the matter is that what I was destined to do hadn’t even been invented yet (well invented, but not in the mainstream).
It took me many years, 50 in fact, to figure out who I was and what my soul’s purpose was. First, I had to heal from my dysfunctional childhood and resultant dysfunctional marriage. I had to raise my 2 sons, alone, as a single mother. It took so long.
I worked hard during those years as a dog groomer and in pet store management. Those were low paying jobs with hard work, no health insurance, no paid vacations. I ruined my body and still suffer from back issues. Those were difficult years where I flailed around spiritually, and somehow managed to bring up my sons. They are now two men that I’m very proud of today.
It was like making my way through the maze in the Harry Potter novel, twisting and turning down false paths and encountering strange beasts in the form of my inner child and inner demons, financial issues and the problems that arise out of solely raising two teenage sons trying to figure out who they are going to be when they grow up.
All through it, I managed to study Astrology and Tarot, practice Reiki and eventually teach classes that are now only becoming accepted throughout the world. Back when I was flailing around, I hadn’t even heard of them. They were what healed me, and today I use these skills to help others heal. Helping others heal through the modalities I practice, Astrology, Tarot and Reiki healing was what I was destined to do, I just had to allow it the time to develop into something that was accessible at that time.
Because it wasn’t accessible in New Jersey where I grew up, I was “guided” to move to California, where Reiki was just starting to make an impact and metaphysical stores were popping up all over Southern California. I moved there on a whim, which I later figured out was a whisper in my ear from a Spirit Guide. It also took me many years to figure out why I did that, why I listened, and how it was the only place I could find and learn the healing I needed.
I finally found my True Path, and hope to write more about it in future blogs.
I want to thank the brilliant beings who helped me along the way, but are no longer with us. Because without them, it never would have happened. And of course, many more who I'm still blessed with.
Tony Gonzales
Juanita Peterson
Christine Star Mountain
Dr. Judith Larkin Reno
Sura Das
